Secret Desire - Triathamom 2013

It's true - I have a secret desire to participate in "Triathamom" next summer. I know it seems utterly and completely impossible with my dreadful track record of sticking to absolutely nothing except loving my boys! Plus I'm 120 lbs heavier than I want to be/should be. Oh, and did I mention in the worse physical condition I've ever been in - like winded EASILY, tired A LOT, and basically a major wimp! 1 mile on a bike just about kills me, no I mean it. 1 baby mile! Walking to school and back (abt 2 miles) - can't wait to hit the couch. Swimming a lap and back - heavy breathing and screaming muscles. SO... triathamom is a 5k run (I never run - but maybe I can walk it), 300m swim (approximately 4 times as many laps as I currently swim without stopping), and a 13 mile bike ride - did you hear that? Nay read that?! 13 miles!!!! I know - it's pitiful that those relatively small amounts are overwhelming and undoable for me, but them are the facts folks. Thus, even contemplating such a task as a triathalon - even a mini one, is absolutely ridiculoso!! And yet....I really kind of want to. Now I've wanted to lose 100 pounds for years now and have only gained back what I did lose, plus a few new hanger-oners. I'm great with lots of fabulous ideas, but horrible on follow-through. Impossible. And yet....Maybe....Maybe this time....I kind of want to succeed this time. Truly. I can't do it by myself. I'll need the Lord's help undoubtedly. I love food. I love sweets - really love them. I am an addictive eater. Food is my drug and I am a full-on abuser. I'm in such horrible shape that any work-out seems, well, completely overwhelming. And yet.....I have really enjoyed swimming and water aerobics this summer. If we keep on going a couple times a week....If I pray - a lot! If I just get in a few good habits - one at a time. If I take it step by step, prayer by prayer, day by day. If I visualize myself there with every work-out - or every time I'm sitting on the couch not wanting to work out. Maybe. For now I think I'll just think of the possibility of a triathalon one work-out at a time. Nebulous - out there - an unknown possibility - up to now unreachable - but exploring the possibility. Triathamom 2013 - I think I'll try to meet you there.